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last night i slept at 2 a.m as my fren gave me a call from 12 till 2 a.m… gosh it seemed like i bergayut with my balak(which i dont have)… i tried to sound as fresh as i could although the medication that i ate for contact dermatitis started to show it effect… sometimes as a fren we tried to make sure that we can be a good listener eventhough at that moment ur energy level was negatif..and wawa i wanna sleep…. consequences? i got migraine in the next morning and i vommitted….. i planned to escape the class but i didnt…. dr loh’s class also one of the course why i got migraine this morning… so stress untill it exagerate my migraine…. damn it!!!!!!!!! can i run a very normal life like other? hummmmm…

i suffered from migraine since i was 8 years old… it actually affect my life direct and indirectly…. even worst when i got it during sitting my examination…. luckly it never affect my performance but it did affect my preparation for exams…. see people think migraine… aaahhhh just migraine… nothing important…. take panadol and go to sleep… like my condition… i got it more than twice a month and i have a lot of other diseases….. sometimes it was so frustating when u know ur body not performing as well as other… tambah2 when u are a medical student and u know most of the disease u have… the complication and etc… and make u even stress…

that  why when i meet a patient with serious illnesses.. i tried to put myself on his or her shoes…. understand and empathy to what they suffered from….. i hope one day i would become a very caring nice doctor who compitent enough to perform her duty…. AMIN

do u remember about sunday incident that i told u before… which one..? huhu… absolutely about itchiness and redness of my skin due to ointment that i used to relieve my stomach ache…. actually at first i decided to leave it and let it heal by its own.. but last night it got even worst and today i kept on scratching like a monkey… so this evening i went to dr maria’s clinic…. and yeah i was diagnosed with contact dermatitis and she asked me for not using the ointment anymore…. the sad part was i paid RM35 for dexamethasone, anti histamine pill and calomine lotion… so expensive dou… what ever… as long as it reduced my illness i would rather pay for it….. hahaha the funniest thing happened at the clinic was during registration…. when she asked me where i was staying now… i cant even remmber the place… kondominium tasik mewah was changed to kondominium bukit mewah… hahahahha… and when she asked my phone number i couldnt remember my num heck i accidently gave my father’s phone num… i asked nabia and nabia said that she forgot and i tried to calm down and think… i tried to remember my mom’s num… and bingo… i got my phone num…. so i got a conclusion…. if i cant approach my hard disk direcly why dont i approached it with alternative way which i can log into my hard disk and vommit all the stored information….

ya ALLAH, it is really a troublesome sunday.. early morning around 4a.m i started to have diarrhoea and stomach ache especially at both lower quadrants… it seemed like someone squezzing my stomach.. really painfull… and to make it even worsen, the oinment that i put to relieve the pain caused my skin bacame itchy and turned into red.. shooo….hate the oil so badly…. bacause of that i delayed my journey back to seremban until around 3… and while driving home, i had severe sudden onset of back pain which gave me difficulty while driving…. i ultimately stopped at seremban RnR to rest… as i was rushing to find place for rest i left my purse inside my car…. i noticed it when i wanted to by panadol and drink…. i ran to my car… luckily no one stole it otherwise it would cause additional trouble for me….. right now? i have stomach ache again..damn it… really gtg… or i would end up popo on my bed…

tomorrow i will go to pahang, bersanggah at bridegroom’s house… ask me where am i right now… hahaha i still at seremban and thinking where should i go… ig i go to my along’s house, it costs me same like i go back to tangkak… and if i go to cheras, i have to wait for my sister… but according to the early plan… i have to go to my angah’s house… huh? yup my angah’s house at kepong and my brother in law will give us a lift there…. hum… however i am too lazy to drive… i hate driving alone… coz it is too sleepy… but i have no other choice… if i take komuter, i haveto overnight at my along’s house and if i drive i can overnight at my angah’s house…. basically i have no ides where should i go… i also have no idea if when i will start my journey… god help me i am hopeless 

last sunday was my third sis’s wedding ceremony. she is known with her fussy personality… she complained about everything but sometimes i think we need to be a little bit fussy.. for the example when i reached home my father told me that my sister complained about her ‘pelamin’ and actually it was a little bit away from her colour theme, so the workers had to come again and altered it.. at last my sis got her desired pelamin… i agreed sometimes she was too fussy and irritated us… but sometimes like i told u we need to be fussy…. otherwise we couldnt get what we want… wedding ceremony only occurs once in our life( hem most of the time la kan) therefore for me we should make sure it happened like what we want… and becoz of her fussy attitude my sister got her dream wedding ceremony… u know what i got from her wedding..? other than a brother in law and my disease getting worst till i had to escape monday class. do u know what malay’s mentality?… we always satisfied with what we had. we never argue or speak what inside our heart… when we complaining about something peolpe will talk bad behind us…. that is malay… oh god i am a malay what… hehehehe

gosh what a friday i had…? we had our cscf presentation today as we planned before… however, my partner who is tuck kit could not make it, leave me alone to present our patient… as everyone didnt want to present first, tivya came up with undian way… fine… it seemed fair to everyone… and god really ‘love’ me… when i opened the paper… oh no i am the lucky number 1… at first yee wee volunteered to change with me.. but tivya asked him to change with her… hello… isnt i was the one who really need help? so they changed with each other…fine… so i be the first one and presented my patient… actually i was so nervous and most of the question asked from them i couldnt answer… why? bcoz i was so nervous.. although most of the info i got but i couldnt remember anything… what ever… and bcoz i got the slide show today only, i didnt prepare much.. so serve me right….

todAY is my hectic day as our clinic posting ended so late… usually we clerked 3 to 4 patient but today we clerked 5 patient… ok i understand that in most clinic kesihatan a medical officer would examine 50 and even more people per day and we seem like examined 1/10 from it… let say u have fever and come to KK… u wait for more than one hour and after that when u meet the doctor how long the doctor will examine u..? correct less than 20 minutes… thus they will sit still on their chair and ask u what is ur problem and check u here and there and give u what ever medicine that fix with ur condition and u going home… but if u go to IMU treatment room at 1st floor… we would take ur history including sexual history (it is so damn funny when u hear we clerk sexual history)… after that the student that clerk u would perform thorough physical examination… and discuss investigation needed… the luckiest thing… the doctor would not simply give medication to u… some people doesnt like to be part of our learning patient, however most of patient who had be our patient satisfied with our services.. the example yesterday a patient was so relieved as his visit was really meaningful when the doctor found there was tumour at his body… today a patient show his gratefulness when prof kwa made an appointment for endoscopy for him and done thorough PE on him… actually it was win win situation… we learn a lot of thing from the patient and the patient get the best treatment then ever and dont have to wait for a long time….

i am sick… i am not only sick WITH seremban’s FOOD but really sick
actually i feel un well since last week but today my intracranial pressure is so high until i have headache even when i m talking and tinnitus…
this morning after netball match i went home immediately after the match… people thought i was peace of with the game… actually i wasnt… it just a game and i never give it a damn….. i just feeling unwell
so tonight i want to sleep early…..

today i went picnic with azi,farah,fiqah and kak baiti. we brought a lot of handcook food. it was really exciting and `relaxing. from the beginning i planned i just wanna to sit and watched them playing and swimming… huhuhu as usual my plan always tersasar…. heck i was the first one ran to the beach and playing water… we took a lot of picture as we were too obsessive with ourselves hahahhaha….azi and farah bought kites which was quite expensive RM5 each. at first we had problem to fly it luckily the pakcik canoe helped us and the kite flied…u know what, there was a guy who attracted to azi and kak baiti suddenly be their org tengah… as i was too excited with the kites i got terrible sun burn…. at 2.30 we started to pack all the things and went home…. it will be more fun if u was there…..:p

it had been ages since i left basketball… i back off from basketball when i was at form 5 as what my father’s want… at bukit jalil i didnt have the courage to play coz there were a lot of potential players… here at seremban, i really wanna to play therefore i gave my name to people in charge to play for my team…. hahaha it was so funny… why? simple…. i stuck with netball rules and regulation… i didnt bum the ball but i tried to pass the ball ASAP… even my soles were glued everything time i caught the ball….however the most important was i enjoy myself.. ignoring what other people think about me and yeah have fun…. at least we won for the match but i got additional present…. which is sun burn…. it is really bad and i have netball match on this sunday….oh gosh my sister’s wedding ceremony is next week… i dont know whether i have enough time to get off this sun burn from my skin… i will look so weird and more ugly with this sun burn and wear dark brown baju kurung… people will think that the baju kurung can walk by itself….mak tolong anakmu ini heheheheheh

what ever happened i never regret with what i done ….

yesterday is history, tomorrow is mistery and today is a gift….