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last night nabia, fiqah,shikin and aku gi kg baru after watching pirate of caribean… actually ni semua jasa shikin yang rajin called x-fresh and get free tickets. nak dijadikan cerita tengah2 makan dalam kebuluran tu tiba2 aku nampak one woman long hair, height… about 6 feet rasanya, kurus n yang penting dia pakai spagheti dress warna merah berurus niaga ngan makcik jual makanan depan restaurant tu. and tanpa disangka2 dia and kawan2 dia semua decided to eat kat kedai tue… kawan2 dia quite sexy but she is the most sexiest woman yang aku pernah tengok.. why? sebab baju dia sangat2 tranparent… bila tengok betul2 dress tu macam perempuan pakai bra and pentis… sorry to say tapi tulah hakikatnya…. yang paling kelakar bila this woman masuk with her friend semua guys dalam kedai tu start tersengih2 tergelak sesama sendiri even empunya kedai…dan memandangkan only kitorang je meja yang 100% perempuan diorang pun choose meja kat belakang kitorang… yang tak bestnyer memandangkan diorang duduk belakang meja kitorang semua mata yang nak melihat kecantikkan mereka semuanya terpaksa melalui kitorang dulu… dahtu diorang dok tersengih2 sampai membuatkan aku n fiqah yang dudk membelakangkan meja pompuan2 tu rasa macam distrip oleh peminat2 mereka lak… mak yah oi makyah korang ni memang menyusahkan kitorang ler… betul lah apa yang aku cakap… actually diorang ni makyah… aku agak diorang ni dah tahap prostitute.. and yang kelakar abang yang amik order diorang pun naik takut ngan diorang hehehe… jauh je berdiri nak amik order.. and aku rasalah kan diorang saja jer duduk belakang kitorang sebab nak mencabar kitorang..nampak sangat lah kitorang ni cantik hahaha perasan lak…. masa aku bayar tu one of the waiter siap suruh aku angkut budak2 tu sekali bawak balik… hehee kelakar aku dah banyak kakak lagi nak angkut diorang tak mahu aku… kalo angkut abang2 hensem yang jadi waiter kat situ nak jugak… tulah dia cerita permpuan sejati vs perempuan celup… korang rasa sama yang menang…?

ALLAh berfirman di dalam al QURAN walatakulahuma uffi… janganlah kau meninggikan suara walaupun dengan mengatakan uhh… tetapi kita seringkali alpa terhadap suruhan ALLAH ini… acapkali kita mendengar si anak meninggi suara seolah2 si ibu lahir dari rahim si anak… malah kadang2 si ibu terguris dan kecil hati… namun hati si ibu sangat mulia, dimasakkan jua juadah untuk si anak mengalas perut. malah setiap kali berdoa si ibu meminta, "YA ALLAH masukkanlah anakku ke dalam syurga di kalangan orang2 beriman, berikanlah mereka kebahgiaan hidup di dunia dan akhirat" , si anak pula tikar sembahyang pun entah terperosok di mana pun di tidak ingat… bila si anak tersilap langkah, sumbang sekali langkahnya, terpalit arang hitam di muka si ibu… si ibu berdoa lagi "YA ALLAH kembalikanlah anakku kepangkuanku…walau sejahat manapun dia tetap anakku, bukalah hatinya menerima hidayahmu… jauhkanlah ia dari azzabmu yang tak tertanggung itu" di mana si anak? masih dengan egonya… malah menuduh si ibu mendoakan keburukan dan azab untuknya… wahai insan yang bergelar anak… ibumu itu tetap ibumu, yang melahirkanmu, membesarkanmu, bahagiakanlah ibumu… mengapa harus dibiarkan dia menangisi saat2 akhir hayatnya kerana kealpaanmu

i know that it is unethical to discuss about your patient to somebody else.. however this case really distracts me… it is a very sad story.

i read about vegetative stage in patho note but i never thought that i would meet such a case in my life or at least not now. however today when we were allocated to particular patient dr shuhadah said that one of my big group’s case was so interesting. although the guy couldnt talk but his mother would help them for the history.

so i wonder what made this patient interesting. from history taking, ticket and dr zaki’s explanation we knnow that this man had electric shocked while working and he had hypoxia encephalopathy. which in layman mean his brain at the cerebral part was damage due to less of oxygen. that mean this patient would never recover he would remain like that for the rest of his life… vegetative stage…

to made this story even sad, when he was involved in the accident his wife was around 7 months pregnant. now his child was 3 weeks old. that make me so distracted emotionally bout this case…

could you imagine, a couple who was so happy waiting for their first child, planning their child’s name, future, and maybe planning for the child’s wedding ceremony suddenly due to god will everything just ruin up and everything wasnt and never been same next. i didnt know how to explain what i feel right now, i felt a little bit terkilan as he would not know his awaiting child, how could he know while he couldnt even move to any stimuli….

everything that i gone through, i saw, i felt i experienced only would come to one conclusion… when ALLAH says ‘kunfayakun’ everything can change. never regret with any of His obstacle and dugaan as everything He did only to measure our Iman.. today, in this world maybe he was suffered so his wife… but we dont know what going to be happened next at akhirat.. maybe they are guarantee with aljannatul firdaus or any other jannah….lets pray that with ALLAH will he will recover, or at least he will manage to recognize peolpe, talk although with slur speech and the most important he will recognize his child.

there was a case that had been discussed among few psychologist in a conference recently. it was about a doctor who had his own clinic. he had regular patients and happy family. however one day, his elder son was caught due to drug abuse. since that incidence he lost his patient and worse getting worst when he had to close his clinic and start a new life at other area. there are many other cases similar with this situation, everything happened due to prejudism.in our community if someone of the family involve with drug it means that the whole family also involve with it. in this situation only one person supposed to be blame (the elder son of course). however our malaysian mentality were totally different, for us the whole family were guilty. we never considered about the other family member’s feeling.they never imagined such a petathic future would happened to them. it was even worst if one of your family members was been jailed.. they would called u anak banduan or adik banduan and etc etc. they would make sure this pity family suffered and wished that they would just dissapear from this world. and if one of your family members was been caught as he or she was a drug dealer, the community punishment are 100% harder than two other cases. i know that drug is our most enemy, but please open our mind and eye. dont simply punished the whole family due to one member mistake. supposely, we should give them moral support as all this thing would totally change their life and they havent prepared to face it. they need our support and empathy. if you cant do it, at least stop talking or blame the rest, because we dont know maybe it will happen in our family next

actually now i dont have any idea to write… but i think that i should write something to update my blog….

i just want to share with you about jodoh… alrite i am not going to tell you guys that you should chase for your jodoh etc etc but i want to look jodoh at the other side….

sometimes we heard people said that "takder jodoh" seriously i think that this world should also be drilled into our life dictionary… y? it is for a good preparation for us for the future….life is not a fairy tale which will always have happy ending

in reality, not every relationship is works and moves smoothly… sometimes we are so unlucky and meet a man who like to cheat and even having an affair at our back..how harder we try to make it as stable as we aspect sometimes it is not happen….  although we pray to god that we really want him to be our soul mate and we really love him but almighty doesnt ‘makbulkan’…. he just leaves us and find his real love….

so what are we suppose to do? cry until we blind like kassim selamat or stop praying as what for if ALLAH never listen…. nauzubillah….everyone know… every single thing happens in our life is controlled by the ALmighty….. and He is a good listener and HE know everything in this world….

there are thousands of reasons why he is not destinied for you… maybe your real soul mate isnt him… the real one will come later… or maybe he is just a good liar… all his words are just bullshit(man always did this)!!!!!! and etc etc etc…. the most important is you must believe that ALLAH will always choose the best for us….

so should i hate my ex or should i throw him away from my life? for me… i will pray that he will meet a better person suites for him… seriously….or if i am too hard broken i choose the second choice.. i dont want to keep lying to myself that he still loving me and waiting for me or he will come back to me… i know that to let someone who we love are soo painful and sad but it is just temporarily… the pain that we have to go through living with a guy who doesnt love us is even more…

pray to ALLAh that one day somebody who can love you as how you love him, respect you as you are, and care about you will come and the fairy tale will come true

have you ever experienced that you felt so fatique lethargy throughout the week? maybe you haven’t but badly this is the most lethargy week for me…

i just want to be alone.. sleep and watching tv or go out for a jog that’s it… maybe becoz all my problem + studying + relationship + friendship = stress..

most of the time i just want to sleep and sleep becoz my brain is too tired to work and think all this stuff… yeah right you might be said to me "relax and just forget it… life must go on…" saying is just simple like i told you before it is only use some of your muscles and nerves… but if you are on my shoe you would be felt the same like me or more or less…..

when i slept, i felt so calm, so peaceful and sometime i didnt even want to wake up… i thought why should i wake up and face all my problem again and again… other would say…" solve it and you will be happy" you know what to solve all my problem what i need is only if Allah would return the clock to one year back when it all started to happen.

you know what, if a problem is only involving you it is a very2 small problem. what you need is, solve it wisely.. but if it is called family problem where all your family members are been involved most of the time you cant do nothing…

therefore, every second i would pray to Allah that HE would give me strenght to go through all this without affecting my study. otherwise my life would ruin up and nothing else left for me…