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let me tell you about my beloved mother… she is the best mother in the world.. of course she never forget her daughters or husband’s birthday… i know i am quite a naughty girl becoz everytime if it is my birthday i would text my sisters and said.. today is my birthday and i want this or that present…. actually most of the time my stingy sisters refused to do so… usually my first and second sister would buy me present like i wish or give me a treat… my mother… every year since i was 6 years old she would held a birthday party… she would cook and buy cake for me… when i was kid honestly our family’s life was quite ‘poor’ in the sense of money, therefore usually my mother would save her two or three month balance from her salary… she would try not to overspend to make sure i would have a birthday party like others… so sad rite… that is my mother…. now when everything more stable my mother still have to plan 1 or 2 months earlier for my birthday but in this case more to where should we celebrate it or what will we have on that day… hello huzaifah what is your points? oklah actually i just want to say that i am a very bad daughter as i forgot my mother’s birthday this year!!!!!!!!! what the hell happened to me? i forgot someone (who is always do her best to celebrate my birthday)’s birthday. this is the first time i be the last person greet her happy birthday mak semoga panjang umur and dimurahkan rezeki..usually i was the first… and the most embarrassing and can’t be appologized was i totally forgot her birthday even aftre my father gave me stupid hint…. so guys out there… appreciate your mother although just a pharse like happy birthday mak… a kiss on her cheek never let your pride jatuh berguling2 but it is the most precious present for her i think… the most important i will held a birthday party for her next week as appologize but still the guilty is always with me forever

last week aku menghadapi syndrome premature menopause… hem emotional, easily get angry and feeling like want to slap somebody… teruk betul… i just 21 going to 22 but i got this syndrome hehe…. if i have premature menopause therefore i can’t sacrifice for my country to achive its target population rite… so pity to my country… sob sob sob. hopefully next one week holiday will give me enough time to heal and recover….. i am just too tired to have this bad attitude and feeling… i know that if i continued to misbehave like this everyone will run away from me… so let us pray that this premature menopause will stop and wei i dont readt to menopause yet….hehehehe… to all my friends especially semester 4 sorry for everyhting… i dont mean to trk muka or get angry but yeah it is uncontrol manner.. such a bad manner… sorry…

alrite… most of my x school mates, x unis or my xs (hehehe have i?) know that i am a very lone ranger person… i never went out with them or hang out together whether weekend or weekdays…. i always gave them excuses… why…? because i am afraid if i go out with them i will be the one who walking alone….keep silent….

actually i really love to be with them but my previous experience during reunions made me think and think again whether should i join them or shouldn’t i?

but last thursday, i went out with my friend to catch a movie.. 8 of us were so eager to watch the CINTA movie…. actually at first i refused to go… i hate it would happen like what i think.. but yuni words made me changed my mind… she said the feeling to be with all your friends is the most precious and memorable compared to money that you will spend….alrite why shouldn’t i get a try?

and guess what..? it was really fun to be with them….we watched movie, had dinner(quarreled which meal should we pick and add on), and window shopping together… honestly the moment we shared was the best moment that i never had before….

they totally different… and i am the one who build the barrier between them….

it wasn’t mean i hate my x school mates or x unis mates…. actually i realize that it was because of me i left behind.. becoz of my silence and too protectiveness and self defence and low self esteem… therfore it made them felt awkward to talk with me….

so it mean i am the bad girl…